I am not worth it
Knowing you have value, while still feeling held back by a belief that you don’t deserve more.
About the program
Death
of Ego.
Live energetic work.
With Benjamin.
Death of Ego works with your attachment to the identity you’ve learned to live by: the beliefs about who you are, what you deserve, and what life can be.
Benjamin does the energetic work. You take part live, with no techniques to learn and no prior experience needed.
Understand the program
01
Identity
& ego
What Death of Ego works with
When “this is who I am”
becomes a limit.
“I have to be the strong one.” “My needs come last.” “People like me don’t get to have that.” A belief can become more than something you think. It can become part of the person you feel you have to be.
That is what false identity means here: a sense of self built around beliefs and expectations you’ve taken on. Death of Ego works with your attachment to that identity, so you can recognize and express more of who you are beyond it.
Ego and your choices
Ego projects.
You choose.
Ego presents a familiar version of life, showing where there is still something to learn. It can make an old path feel like the only path. It doesn’t make your choices for you.
Death of Ego isn’t the destruction of your personality or free will. Ego remains. The aim is to release the attachment that keeps you walking into the same projection.
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Inside
a session
Benjamin does the energetic work.
No prior experience needed.
You don’t need to be a practitioner or have taken another course. Benjamin guides the session and carries out the energetic work with the people present.
- 01
Find what is holding it in place.
Benjamin tunes into the resistance beneath a societal pillar: why it is there, what it is attached to, and the layers that may be keeping it in place.
- 02
Work through the resistance.
He works energetically with those layers and with the attachment to the false identity. Understanding a belief is part of the conversation; the session also includes active clearing.
- 03
Integrate what comes through.
Benjamin guides the energetic integration that follows the clearing. The work includes both releasing what has been held and supporting what can take its place.
The people in the session matter. The same pillar can lead to different work in another round. Benjamin responds to what comes through for those present, so attending live is part of the experience.
03
The societal
pillars
Bigger than
a passing thought.
Societal pillars are beliefs reinforced by the world around us: through family, culture, relationships, and ideas about what being human is supposed to mean.
You may consciously disagree with a belief and still feel its influence. The pillar sessions work with that deeper attachment. Each of the seven pillar sessions covers three pillars.
I must always put others' needs before my own.
Giving so much of yourself that your own life and needs keep being put on hold.
I’m not safe, so it’s always fight or flight.
Feeling that you have to stay on guard, even when there is no immediate threat.
Change is Impossible
Letting what has been difficult before decide what is possible for you now.
No pain no Gain
Believing that progress has to come through struggle, and that ease means you aren’t doing enough.
I've been abandoned by God/I have no connection to the Divine
Feeling abandoned or unsupported, even while looking for a deeper connection.
See all 22 pillars
Self-worth and identity
I am a failure and a disappointment
Only certain people are allowed to excel. If I don’t excel, no one will like me.
I have done a lot of bad in my life.
I will never know who I really am
I am just a human
I am not worth it
Love and belonging
I am all alone on this Earth
I am different to others.
I must always put others' needs before my own.
Love hurts
Safety and trust
I'm a victim
I’m not safe, so it’s always fight or flight.
Someone is always out to get me
Change and fulfillment
Change is Impossible
True happiness is unattainable
I Never Get What I Want
Suffering and mortality
You have come to earth to suffer
Life is short
No pain no Gain
Spiritual connection
There is nothing beyond the physical reality.
I am separate from life
I've been abandoned by God/I have no connection to the Divine
04
Living Light
& restoration
New for the next round
Letting go of the identity.
Caring for what lies beneath.
An identity may have been trying to give you something you still need: safety, love, belonging, certainty, or a sense of worth.
Benjamin will bring Living Light into Death of Ego for the first time in the next round. Living Light is the white-gold energy he works with as a living intelligence connected to the Creator.
The intention is to let it reveal hidden resistance, recognize what an identity has been trying to provide, and support that need as the identity is released. There may also be wisdom worth keeping within a role you’re ready to leave behind.
One exampleThe part of you that
The part of you that
always puts others first.
- The role
“I have to keep
everyone happy.” - The need beneath it
Love.
Belonging. - The gift to keep
Your capacity
to care.
The intention is to release the obligation to earn love through self-sacrifice, while preserving the care that matters to you.
This new direction brings restoration into the work: uncovering the original Living Light expression that the identity has been covering, and giving it room to be expressed.
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The program
structure
Nine sessions.
Two hours each.
Both formats follow the same structure. Every session is two hours long, and Benjamin leads all nine.
9
sessions
2 hours each
The same program.
Group or one-to-one.
Group or one-to-one.
- 01
One opening session · Private in both formats
Clear attachment to false identity.
Begin one-to-one with Benjamin, working with your attachment to the identity you’ve come to think of as “me.”
- 07
Seven pillar sessions · Three pillars per session
Work through the societal pillars.
These sessions take place with the group in the group format, or privately with Benjamin in the one-to-one format.
- 01
One closing session · Private in both formats
Clear earthly attachments.
Return to private work with Benjamin to clear energetic attachments to people, things, and other parts of everyday life.
Be there live.
Benjamin works with the people present. A recording helps you revisit a session, but watching afterwards doesn’t replace receiving the live work.
Keep your recordings.
The group program includes lifetime access to its recordings in the portal. Private recordings are visible only to you, Benjamin, and administrators.
Your guide throughout
Benjamin
Creator of Death of Ego.
The person doing the work with you.
Benjamin leads the private sessions and the group sessions himself. The work follows what comes through for the people present, including the resistance beneath a familiar belief.
“Stop looking for things to fix.
Benjamin, during Death of Ego
Move forward in your life.”
The purpose is to support the life you go back to after the sessions: how you relate to yourself, how you respond, and the choices you make.
Before taking part
A few
questions.
Does “Death of Ego” mean losing myself?
No. It refers to work with the false identity and your attachment to it. Ego isn’t permanently erased, and you retain your personality and your ability to choose.
Do I need experience with energy work?
No. Benjamin does the energetic work. You don’t need to learn a method or complete another course beforehand.
Are psychedelics involved?
No. This is a live energetic program with Benjamin, without psychedelics.
What changes between group and one-to-one?
The nine-session structure and two-hour session length are the same. In the group format, the seven pillar sessions are shared with the group; the opening and closing sessions are private. In the one-to-one format, all nine sessions are private.
Has Living Light been part of Death of Ego before?
No. Benjamin is introducing it for the first time in the next round. Its intended role is to support restoration alongside the release of identity, including the needs and wisdom the identity may have been protecting.
When can I take part?
The group program opens when Benjamin schedules it. There are no confirmed group dates yet. One-to-one sessions are scheduled when you book.
Ways to take part
The same work.
Two ways to take part.
Nine two-hour sessions with Benjamin in either format. Choose the setting that suits you.
Group
Work with a group.
Seven group pillar sessions, with a private opening and a private closing session.
$1,400 USD
- Sessions
- 9 · 2 hours each
- Schedule
- Set when Benjamin schedules the group
Enrollment closed · No dates scheduled
View the group course offerOne-to-one
Work privately.
The same opening, seven pillar sessions, and closing—all one-to-one with Benjamin.
$4,000 USD
- Sessions
- 9 · 2 hours each
- Schedule
- Arranged when you book